"The best day of your life is the one on which you decide your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame. The gift is yours - it is an amazing journey - and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day that your life really begins."
After months of intentionally staying away form yoga studio, I've found myself dabbling back into a relationship with them. And here's what I'm re-learning.
I took time away because of injury. Because of heat. Because I mentally needed to step away and reinvigorate who I am without the comfort of the studio, the teaching, the "yoga teacher" title. And you know what? I'm in love with being just a student, in my own practice.
Ten years after my first class, I am re-learning how to listen to my inner wisdom. How my body wants to move, explore and unlock stagnation. My time away taught me how to tap into my intuition in other ways, and find the voice that speaks my spiritual truth. But it moved me slowly away from my physical body. The thing that carries me through each day. Digests my food and allows me to make sweet love to the world around me.
I continually learn to accept my softer embraceable body just as I guide others to unconditionally love their own body. I patiently watch as my perception of "perfection" sways, morphs, and ultimately vaporizes. Time away from mirrors, tight yoga clothes, and guiding others to be in their bodies, allows me to be in mine. Unabashedly, whole-heartedly, and with a full moon every night of the month. I get to question what I need, rather than telling others how to get to what they need. I get to enjoy my body as it relaxes, as it loses physical strength, but gains softened expectations, refreshing my love of walking, simple stretching and breath.
This journey is miraculous! The journey of befriending myself. No excuses. No expectations. No if's, and's, or but's. Just pure appreciation of all the forks in the road. In all roles, with all identities, student and teacher, lover and friend, daughter and sister, soon-to-be-bride and daughter-in-law, entrepreneur and co-worker. I am embracing them all, because I am embraceable.
So, now, here I am with a heightened satisfaction of my inner resources, finding, once again, a physical strength that reconnects me to yoga...the place where it all started.
I am on the journey to create joy and live with full happiness. And my wish for you is to do the same!
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