Our degree of resistance around money is proportional to the degree of power available to us on the other side of that resistance.
~ Kate Northrup in Money A Love Story.
I am a self-proclaimed "Self-Care Expert." I want nothing more than to take care of myself, so that I overflow with love, availability, and space for everyone else that I see, interact with, and care for in my daily life. To me, this is the most important practice of being human, loving on ourselves, so that we can know love so authentically and deeply, that there is no other choice to expand it to others. I am an expert at this...with the exception of one area...my relationship to money. *BIG sigh*
Like all of you, I have a relationship to money that is complicated and deep. It stems from how I grew up with loving parents that provided everything me and my brother ever needed, to easily getting jobs that paid well right out of college, to ...get this... actually wishing it upon myself to live paycheck to paycheck. Yes, this was an actual conversation I had with myself after I left my career at Microsoft. I wanted to know what it felt like to struggle with money. I wanted my ability to make money to be intentional versus working for a company that I didn't have any passion around, and that would direct deposit money into my bank account every two weeks like it grew on an imaginary electronic money tree. I wanted to see my money as something that I earned for working my ass off, putting in the hours, and creating something that I believed in. Even though I worked hard, put in the hours, and was good at what I did, I knew I was meant to do something more spiritually fulfilling. This is when I quit my job, and started teaching yoga full time, which resulted in a drastic decrease of my income. I was beginning my battle!
Fast forward six and a half years, to now...I am just figuring out that all of my expertise in self-care also applies to my relationship with money. Who would have thunk it?! In those in-betweeen years, I have healed my relationship to food, to my body, to my loved ones, have connected to nature, my breath, and other inspiring people so deeply. So why had I envisioned my relationship to money to be any different? Well, because I wasn't to until now...when I am truly ready to heal, to connect, and to inspire not only myself by what I am capable of, but also others.
A switch flipped in my consciousness a couple weekends ago, precisely the evening of Thursday, August 13th. I have been working through Fire Starter Sessions by Danielle LaPorte for something like a year and a half. I pick it up when I need a flame placed under my butt to continue moving forward in my life. On August 13th, I was completing some FSS exercises and wanted to see what content might be online and I got lost in an internet rabbit hole of awesomeness! I started watching videos upon videos of interviews with Danielle and her inspiring friends, one of whom was Kate Northrup, the author of the book Money A Love Story. A light went off - that's what I needed, to fall in love with my relationship to money. I know how to set up a budget. I know where I spend most of my money (deliciously conscious and organic food, travel, and rent). I know how much money I make. I know how much debt I'm in. Even though I have the knowledge of all these important pieces in my money story, I am now searching for a harmonious mentality that exchanges my wealth of knowledge for value earned.
So I bought Money A Love Story, and after only three chapters and many exercises, I have had the following ah-ha's already.
And so it begins, that I become the heroine of my own Money Story.
I am on the journey to create joy and live with full happiness. And my wish for you is to do the same!
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